Pictures...pictures...pictures of me

:) Hey. I have a Xanga site because you have to create a username and password to post on any Xanga account (like Amy's or Jenny's etc.) SO I thought, why not put it to some use. I posted some fun pictures of me when I was little. Feel free to comment, but be nice. I'll add a link called Holly's Photos. As I have time, I may add more there for those disciplined enough to check there.

Real talent.....or a lot of free time?

Funny 

Disillusionment

Well, it happened. The air was let out of the balloon that was Josh Heupel. Many of you find teasing me about Josh a valuable hobby or pass time. I'm sorry to say that chapter of my life, and your hobby, must end. Weeping...mourning...gnashing of teeth! Oh woe is me.

(Do all you people read my blog entries with the sarcasm and over dramatization that I intend? If not, you should. I'm JOKING! Okay, just checking. I'll continue.)

Yesterday, still coasting on the high of so much air time for Josh, I was happily enjoying my crush on a local "celebrity"...then...just a suddenly as it began, it is ripped away from me! (Okay, so I've always known that the illusion of Josh Heupel is probably much better than the real thing, but we all like to ignore that. Call it rose-colored glasses, ignorance or plain rebellion, we all go through the "perfect" syndrome and ignore flaws because we like a person.)

A "reliable" source informs me of stories that contradict the Josh that I know. I knew him as a solid Christian, a guy who loves kids and would never turn away a kid's request for an autograph, a community builder (see his foundation), etc. (I experienced this first-hand. He more than willingly gave me two autographs for my newphew when he was playing at OU.) However, this source tells me of arrogance, lying to children who recognize him, keg parties, etc. *Sigh*

Ignorance is bliss, and I tried to ignore and block out this new Josh. I didn't want to hear about it. I wanted to believe he was better than the rest. But I can't. So, I am trying to bury this painful chapter in my life. Proverbs tells us that hope deferred makes the heart sick...the hope that was Josh is now gone. I'm working on the sick heart part. I think I'll go eat some comfort food. Maybe some pot pie or Pineapple and Coconut. Eating such bad food will hopefully make my stomach sick and take my mind off my heart.

On a serious note, character counts. Are we like Josh? I think so. I think to some extent we all have our "public" or "nice guy" side and our side when we think no one is watching. But how much is that private person like the public person? In Josh's case, these two sides seem to be opposites. He wants to help kids so much he starts a foundation, yet lies to kids who recognize him when he feels it's not suitable to talk? To be fair, I don't know the whole story. I was not there and have no idea what was going on in his life--the struggles or the pressures he was and is under. I do know we're all sinners, we're all selfish, and we're all influenced (at least some) by the world around us. He is in the same boat we are. So I am not condemning or condoning Josh. I don't know him. But I do know that the private person, the real you, reflects your character. And the heart is where God looks and judges a man. I don't know about you, but I am not happy with what I see in me any more than what I heard about Josh. We all need Jesus.

The Wet-blanket Syndrome

After talking with the ever bubbly and beautiful Lindsay Wilson this morning, I was reminded once again that I am considered to be a pessimist. Or to state it in negative terms, I'm not an optimist. (I thought it was realistic not pessimistic to say that I'd be less likely to marry Josh Heupel if I lost an arm or both arms, but even if I keep both arms, the likelihood of ever meeting, dating, and marrying him was less than zero.) And she thought I was being pessimistic. Hmm.

Then I find this article saying that being pessimistic may kill me. Great. Just what I needed. According to this stupid article, which sites a study from the November issue of the Archives of General Psychiatry, states that "older people who described themselves as highly optimistic have a lower risk of heart disease or death from any cause over nearly 10 years compared with people who are very pessimistic." It went on to say that those who were very optimistic had a 55% lower risk of death from all causes and a 23% lower risk of heart-related death.

Isn't it ironic that the ones who would probably read this and really care about this study would be those that are more pessimistic? Also, would they also take it to heart more than their optimistic counterparts? Great, all I needed was another thing to worry about.

My weekend

We made it another week. Man, I don't like these close games. We really haven't had the perfect game--you know where we are unstoppable on offense, defense, special teams, and even trick plays. I'm hoping that perfect game will be in the Orange Bowl. Sorry Jade and Carrie I still love you, but if we play you guys, the gloves come off! Hey, even if we don't have the perfect game, we still have the best looking coaching staff. *sigh* : )

I would say the second best thing about the game (winning being number one) is all the air time Josh got. Yes, each and every time he was on camera, someone at the house would have to say "Josh Heupel" (in case I didn't know it). Toward the end of the game, the phone rang. Before it was answered, I knew it was Tony Wu calling about Josh. I'm just glad my tortured heart brings so many other people enjoyment!!!

In other news....Emily wasn't eaten by her uncle's scary dog. She just went to Lubbock. (relief) And yes, Em, I would love to go To Lubbock and promote Project Impact! Just let me know when! Also, Philip finally got comments on his blog! Thanks for filling the request. ; ) It's looking good! (I am impressed at your creation. I have to use cheater's templates to have a half decent blog.) And as if all that wasn't enough, I also get to see my favorite Arizonian on Thursday. Miss Sarah Gleason is coming to Norman for a long weekend. I also hear a rumor that Jessica W. and Jen are also going to be here this weekend. It will be a P.I. reunion.

I cleaned the house for about 4 hours today and now my allergies are killing me. I am very allergic to cleaning supplies. But now our bathroom, kitchen and living room are sparkling clean! That's all.