Turk

I am pretty exhausted. This week has been really long, hard, and tough emotionally. I was at the BSU about 12 hours yesterday. I am ready for the weekend, although I don't know how relaxing it will be. If anyone wants to answer phones this afternoon and let me off early, they would be my hero forever.

Today Debby, Rita and I are going to Yukon to try to adopt a new dog for my Dad. My dog it about to die, and Dad will need the companionship of a dog. I asked him if it was okay, and he said yes. I found a dog that I think will be a good fit for my dad. I'll keep him at our house until Dad needs him. His name is Tuk! He is a cutie. Mr. Reuter told us we could also have a dog, so our house might have a pet soon too. I will be sure an post pictures soon of our new family members.

Rusty Cryer was here at Vespers last night, and as always, he did an amazing job. I hope to be able to go on a trip with them sometime. It won't be this summer....this summer I will be here in NORMAN at my desk. Pray I don't go stir crazy! But I think most of my roommates my also be home. Kate is, Susanne may be, and I am not sure about Amy and Allison.

In other news, I am getting sick I think. Last night I started coughing, and I am still coughing today. I have been drinking lots of orange juice and hoping I don't lose my voice.

Not much better

I have been told my last post depressed people, so I felt that I needed to update. I could lie and say everything is better, but Jesus doesn't like it when we lie. So I will bleed the fifth.

This should make people happy. Here is a picture of me with Pink hair form last year's Spring Break.

Philip was here yesterday and we had a discussion about how he looked as a freshmen compared to now. (He was kind of scary LOOKING his freshmen year....very punk) He says he was the same Philip, and I believe him, but I think his looks now fit his personality better! ANYWAY, he helped me put together my outfit and gave me the idea for the safety pins on my shirt and the patches. I wouldn't have looked as authentic as I did it if weren't for him. AND Debby...she also helped donate some "jewelery" for the outfit (if a spike dog collar and bracelet count as jewelry.)

This is really the only picture of that time that I will let people use. The rest are pretty bad.

Anyway, I need to go. Thanks to Alex (my "b-friend" ---Emily), Debby, Sarah, Emily and all of the others for encouragement. You guys helped!

Blue Me

Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I didn't even get online to read everyone's blogs until this morning.

I don't know what to write. This week and today I am just blue....Thanksgiving was good. I relaxed a lot, got a new sewing machine from my parents for my birthday, and played a lot of Snood. But all of this tank-filling down time was overshadowed with little things.....like my family dog was not acting normal. Dad took her to the vet yesterday and it doesn't look good. I know that she is old (11 years), but she is my dad's sole companionship when I am not home (which is most of the time). I hurt for him because I know how much he loves that dog. I am waiting to hear if she is better today. If not, Dad may have to choose to put her to sleep. So that makes me very sad and worried for my Dad.

Part of my blue mood is probably also because my birthday that is coming up is hitting harder than I expected. I am not one to really think about age, but I guess now I am hitting the time in life it hurts more. Being surrounded by people 4 to 9 years younger than me probably doesn't help, since those are who I am comparing my age to most of the time. It's probably more physiological than anything, but I am not looking forward to turning 28. Sweet Debby tried to spin it as "years of wisdom" that I can pass on....yada, yada, yada. : ) I don't know. *sigh*

This picture is one of my favorites. This is Erin and I after we went running and got caught in the rain. Since today's blog seems to be depressing topics, I'll add this one in to the mix.

Erin was one of my closest friends after I graduated college. Just about two and a half, three years ago our friendship went sour. We both like these boys at work....and although we knew our crushes were probably not Christians (thus not an option), we talked about them all the time.

Later, I began talking with my guy a lot on e-mail, and I had a lot of open doors to walk through and get into a bad relationship. (He was 30, divorced with two kids....but he looked like Brad Pitt, so I ignored all that!) I knew I couldn't continue the temptation, and talked to Jen, who promptly told me to end it. I told her I would--why would I tell Jen this if I didn't plan on ending it!?

Well as I was ending it, Erin was getting deeper into hers. She was also offered some open doors to date this guy, and instead of saying no, it was yes. It started small....little "dates" she didn't call a date. I am more to blame than I'd like, but I tried to encourage her to end it. Eventually, though, this would rip our relationship apart. She dropped out of church, stopped talking to me, and eventually move away and has no contact with any of us. It's been about two years since I have seen or talked to her. It ended very badly. I tried to mend things and leave them clean, but she was bitter and her heart was hard toward me. When I see this picture is makes me so sad. This was just before things went bad with her. I miss Erin so much. I think of her often. I just miss my friend. I pray and hope one day she is restored to her relationship to God and to her friends.

Well....I'm sorry that my post is depressing (at least to me). It is good for me to get this out.....